moving!!!

it's been hard for me to post anything lately because I'm so ... in process. So many things have been happening, good and bad. Gaining new friends, rekindling old ones. As well as losing some... Shallow threats offset by beautiful promises.

I was recently told by someone who I'm realizing doesn't really know me anymore that I am a "drama queen", that drama doesn't just find me but I find it. I would never wish any of this onto me... ever. I would never wish drama onto my friends or myself. But life happens. No matter how apathetic or how much one can try to distance themselves from life and it's worries, as long as you are around people "drama" will find you. Maybe it's because I care so much about my friends. I invest so much of myself into my relationships. But also I trust too easily...

In these past 2 weeks it's as if I've been experiencing and saying goodbye to old things... Hanging out with friends and having a good time... but now I'm finally stepping into what I've been preparing for all this time. Every class, every trial, every circumstance, every confrontation, every lesson, every tear, every thing has led me to this point of full time ministry. And I gladly welcome it.

Apart from temporary things like drama, God has been doing amazing things in my life. Not only did I just graduate but accepted a full time position at Lakeport Christian Center as youth pastor and worship minister. I'm so blessed and excited to start my new life in a place "nobody knows my name": aka in a place where my parents nor my brother have gone before me. I can finally be known as MARIA and not Dick and Carla's daughter or Nathaniel's sister.. Right in time I got a car, honda civic, and literally a few days before my move a beautiful place opened up to me, free of rent except for utilities.

God is so good! not just for his blessings but for who He is. I choose to praise him in my darkest nights and my brightest mornings. In both he is still faithful. I look forward to a time of true healing and restoration. I look forward to dreams being realized and chains being broken. I welcome whatever will be thrown my way because God has allowed me to experience and endure so much already, I know it was for a reason.

Well that's my update for now to whoever reads my blog. :)