I Had To...

I had to become physically lame before my spirit could learn to truly run to You.

I had to bleed and feel the pains of my past before I could truly heal.

I had to stop playing and singing to let my true heart's song come forth.

I had to be silent so that I could be heard.

I had to cry through the night so I could find joy in the morning.

I had to die to myself so that I could truly live (still in process).

I had to be in a temporary prison/cocoon so I could be truly free/transformed (still in process)

I had to doubt and falter so that I could truly find faith in You.

I had to lose myself so that I could truly know who I am.

My heart had to be broken so I could be made whole.

I had to let go so that You could return it to me.

I had to dwell in darkness so that I would know your light.

I had to be still so that you could move.

I had to suffer so that I could share in your likeness.

With hold no painful road from me Lord. The trial and the wait are like treasures. It's not about the why's the how's the when's. it's about our response to the storm.