halloween

am i growing apathetic? or just growing old..

this is the first year I've had literally no ounce of desire to dress up or go out..

I used to LOVE dressing up and seeing others' costumes and having fun.

I hope this is just an off year.. today just feels like any other day

I love what Dane Cook said on twitter the other day:

"Not trying to be sexy is sexy. For Halloween the girl dressed as a combination pope/geisha girl/swiss guard is sure to catch my eye"

It's true. Every year I see pictures of my girl friends with barely anything on, posing like.. well you know. And I just wonder why? any guy who is attracted to that isn't really a man anyway. In fact, I've heard real men are turned OFF by that stuff. I actually get embarrassed for them.

I mean it's one thing to show skin like if you're swimming or if the situation is right but sometimes I feel like Halloween should be called, "Happy excuse to dress like floozy day"

ok done rantng

Never Be the Same: Red

I'll never be the same.

I'm caught inside the memories

of promises, of yesterdays

when I belonged to you.

I just can't walk away.

cause after loving you

I'll never be the same

haven't been writing much lately

not out of laziness or business but just because some things are too personal. and some things are too hard to put into words... especially when one day you're sure and the next you're confused again. It's hard to articulate when you're so... in process.

But will say God is carrying me through each day,
strengthening me to face my responsibilities.

On another note I wrote the owner of my apartment complex about
letting me get a cat with a deposit.

It's way too lonely without a pet.
I need a little furball to come home to, love, and to make me laugh

who would have known

that our first song would be so fitting now..

Miserable @ Best by Mayday parade

"Katie don't cry I know you're tryin your hardest, and the hardest part is letting go of the nights we shared. Ocala is calling but you know it's haunting but compared to your eyes nothing shines quite as bright and when we look to the sky it's not mine but I want it so..."

the only decision that matters now is the next one

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue...

thank you..

The piano for my sorrow
A violin for my joy
The drums for my passion
A cello for my grief
The guitar for dreaming
A flute for my hope

Thank you God for music..